A lot has changed over the last several months (& looking back, I realize that it has been happening for a few years without my knowing exactly what it was–that is, Who it was!)
I’ve grown, learned, starting thinking about things differently, & been reborn informally. I’ve made some discoveries about my life concerning myself. Some things weren’t actual ‘discoveries’ in regard to this word’s meaning, but things society had caused me to believe about myself & the world, people, morals, etc., that I had begun to see weren’t truly a part of who I am but of this world we live in, that I don’t agree with.
In other words, God has finally been allowed to truly enter my life, & show me who I truly am in Him & Him alone! A piece of advice: Never let the world make you into who you think you are! The world didn’t create you, God did! I often start to regret all the years I spent trying to ‘find myself’ in music, in art, in this world, in philosophies of this world, but I remind myself that God was there even when I didn’t truly acknowledge His presence, giving me the means to know when I finally found Him (now!) that from my own experiences, nothing else is really truth & love except Him & His Word. It’s amazing that my new-found true Christianity confirms this day after day & moment after moment, & has given me the words to know & express this in lieu of just ‘feeling’ it.
My way of thinking is changing. It’s refreshing, it’s reassuring, it’s bringing more lasting peace, genuine friendship & real happiness into my life. I now value different things & goals than I did pre-college, in college, & even just after college. It’s given me something to look forward to in the very end, no matter what happens in my life here. & most of all, it’s given me a relationship with my awesome Creator, Father, Healer, Protector, Strong-hold, ….. my Everything!
I’m not going to deny Him any longer. I shouldn’t. I honestly admit that I still care too much what people think, but I’m learning not to & opening up more in regard to what I’ll explain next…
I’ve been renewing my relationship to God as a true Christian more & more as each day goes by! Other things have been changing in my life, but truly bringing God back into my heart, soul & mind is why & how all of these things are changing more than anything else ever would or ever could. I’ve become a new person, my true self as God created me, through Him & my relationship with Him.
I’ve finally found a church that is true to what being a Christian is–being truly Christ-like toward others & in how they live their lives & showing love & compassion toward others no matter who they are–& the members & leaders there show & are passionate about this!
The church has a way of worship through music & prayer that has moved me beyond words, & this is ultimately what began it all for me–helping me to continue attending services, begin playing music there with the praise band, & then causing me to discover a newly budding, honest relationship with God, & to get involved in other activities at this wonderful church. I can’t exactly pinpoint when it all started to really happen for me, but I’m immensely glad that it has.
I’m happier, less stressed, less anxious, less afraid & less worried about how much money I make, where I live or what I can afford to buy. I don’t care what my ’status’ is in this world in relation to such things. I can live my life now with less moments of unnecessary outbursts of stress, anxiety, hurt or anger. I’m learning to change my thinking & my attitude toward life & other people in the most positive ways.
I’ve made mistakes, & I still make them. This is how it will always be as an imperfect human being, but I know even more now that it’s worth living a life closer to God (worth more than anything else!), living in a more Christ-like way & in service to Him & the people of this world, giving Him my all because of what He sacrificed for me. I’ll never be perfect or avoid making mistakes, but I surely want to try! I now have a True Inspiration to do so, even more now than ever.
I can’t get enough! Singing, playing, worshiping, praying, serving, reading His Word, thanking Him & feeling His presence. It’s all so amazing. I want to be glorifying, worshiping, serving & thanking Him every moment of my life. I’m glad to be truly living in the arms of God, & consciously so, each & every day of my life!
EDIT: By the way, I was baptised on Easter Sunday, April 8, 2007 & joined my church! 
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